Without the ability to hellride, my journey back to Amber would take a long time. I decided to stop by House Raja, which would be much closer, and as far as I could tell, I'm still on good terms with Rajani... if she's still alive.
The funny thing about walking through shadow the slow way; you see more of it. Soon after I left the edge of reality, where not much existed, I found a shadow where light had never existed at all. All that was there was darkness, and I found an eery comfort there. I felt more at home there than in Amber. No imminent wars, no selfish cousins, no betrayal... just darkness. It felt like a part of me... so I embraced it. I have things that I must do... promises to keep, but I'll come back someday.